Amber's Story: Rock Bottom to a Life of Strength and Love

I lived at rock bottom for years and found the strength to pull myself through hell and come out better and stronger than ever.

I was with my husband for six years. At first, it all seemed too good to be true; he was amazing to me and my son. We ended up having three children together. Slowly, through the years, he began showing his true colors: super controlling, manipulative, and eventually mentally and physically abusive. I found distance growing between my family and my friends; the only person I had was him. Day in and day out, I constantly heard how ugly and fat I was, then he would love bomb me, saying how much he loved me and that he didn’t mean those things. When I was pregnant with our second son, the physical abuse started—hitting me, throwing me to the floor, burning me with cigarettes, even shooting a gun off right next to my head. The domestic violence in the home became extremely toxic for my children, and soon CPS was at my door taking them away. He then isolated me completely from my family. I had no one but him, not even my children. Now, I was the only one left to abuse and manipulate. The verbal attacks became relentless, and the beatings more severe. Every time I tried to leave, I would find myself giving in to his apologies and back at home with him. Eventually, he started talking to other women, and I felt like I was losing everything—my kids, my family, all my friends—and now I was losing the last toxic thing I had. Feeling overwhelmed, I got extremely intoxicated, knowing he was trying to hook up with another woman. When I tried to talk to him about how much it hurt me, he dismissed me. Not in the right state of mind, feeling like the only way out was to die, I locked myself in the bathroom and slit my wrist in three different places. When he found me, he screamed at me and took pictures of me on the floor in my blood for 20 minutes before calling for help. Naturally, I was hospitalized for five days. While I was there, my husband cheated on me multiple times. He swore it was all over when I got out, that we would have a fresh start and he would just love me. That lasted a day. He forced me out of my own home to bring another woman in to sleep with her multiple times. It was then I reached out to my family and started planning my escape.

I moved in with my grandmother, got a new car and a new job, and filed a protection order against my husband. I rebuilt relationships with my family and my children, started taking medication, and began extensive trauma therapy and groups 3-4 times a week.

Getting closer to happiness meant leaving my narcissistic ex-husband in the past and getting the help I needed to heal. I developed an amazing relationship with my family and kids, and found a man who truly loves me and treats me the way I deserve to be treated.

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