Kim's Story: Realizing My Worth

From someone who has been and always will be PERFECTLY IMPERFECT,  the Beautiful Disaster family helped me realize that everyone, even me, has worth. 

My story starts when I was 21yrs old, I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer. I was two years married, my husband and I wanted children from the beginning and unfortunately, this was not the road that I ended up facing. A misdiagnosis a year prior changed that plan. Doubled over in pain, I found myself in surgery waking to my doctor telling me that I had to have a full hysterectomy due to ovarian cancer he had found, which had burst and spread to some of my other organs. I was totally devastated. I was now turning 22yrs old facing the reality of never having a child who will look like my husband and I, going through the change of Life, menopause, facing chemotherapy, and topping it all off with losing all my hair because of it.

I struggled to get out of bed and go on everyday because I couldn’t figure out why I was even still here. The greatest gift given to women was taken from me and I couldn’t get past that. I went through the motion of living, working and chemo, eventually my hair grew back and I started climbing out of depression. My doctors had only given me a less than 25% chance of survival but year after year I was still here. My husband and I worked towards our new life path, always feeling less than. Eventually, we were blessed with adopting a baby. It wasn’t until a couple of years ago when I saw a Beautiful Disaster shirt that it hit me, what an amazing description of my life. 

After my cancer I never truly felt like a real women, which I guess now sounds silly. Beautiful Disaster helped me realize that birthing children, losing your hair, isn’t what makes you who you are, it’s the pain you go through and over come, the internal and external battles we fight and win everyday that makes us who we are, simply a Beautiful Disaster. Life is messy and its ok as long as we help each other see the beautiful side that all of us posses. Strength, courage, bravery that is deep inside all of us. Sometimes we have to dig deep to find it, to get through the messy paths we endure as women. 

Thanks Beautiful Disaster for your awesome words that gave me the strength and courage to help me realize that I am worth more then I was giving myself credit. It’s ok no one is perfect, we are all PERFECTLY IMPERFECT, that is why I love these words the most. I love my tee-shirt that says Perfectly Imperfect and it gives me the biggest smile on my face when I see others who stop and read it also.